The End.
Why hello there. A new blog? Yes. A few days ago I was reading a few blogs and remembered that I had a blog too. I decided to head to the search bar and typed in my link *here, lol* . I couldn't stop cringing at my younger self. I looked back to posts since I started the blog. Posts with weird inconsistent fonts and bright colours, spelling errors and weird spellings (one = wan), pictures I would upload from google, random posts about how I was feeling (happy and sad) or posts simply about how I spent my week. My posts started to improve (more consistent fonts and no spelling errors) as I grew up. Looking back at my blog, I gotta admit that I did put a lot of effort into it. I created that blog when I was 11 and kept it going until I was 15 and probably broke the record for managing a blog as it was my fifth one. Nope, not exaggerating. So, why a new blog?
As I was reading other blogs I suddenly had the urge to start blogging again. Instead of starting this post with new beginnings, I'm going to start with endings hence the title. The End of two things. First is the end of my old blog. The reason for not wanting to continue updating my old blog is because I want to look back at it every once in a while as a memory. I want the template to be the same, my posts since 2008 to still be there and everything else to be just the way it is. The last post made on 22nd December 2012 is the final post on that blog. Second is the end of my old self. I hate how I have a constant battle with myself everyday between my old self and the better person that I want to be. Old habits do die hard. I reflected on the way I have been acting and how I have hurt people whom I love and care about through my actions, how I have lost their trust with silly decisions and how I have neglected them because of my selfishness which ended up getting me hurt too. I hope that this blog will work as a reminder to me, to work on becoming the person I want to become. I do not want a 180° change where I wake up the next morning an angel but I do want to be more patient, honest, loving, nice, understanding, flexible and mature when faced with situations or things to handle. I want to be confident with myself and honest to others about how I feel. I want to be someone whom others can look up to. I want to be someone who grows deeper in love with God everyday.
I hope that even if it's a little change day by day, that I will eventually be someone who I can be proud of.
I hope that even if it's a little change day by day, that I will eventually be someone who I can be proud of.
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